“Sovereign Over Us” by Michael W. Smith
Months have past since I was once again tempted to just leave this world. To “end the suffering of others“ through removing myself from the equation. Why live to only cause so much pain and suffering to those around me, and to fail God again.
But still, He chose to save me. He chose to send the Spirit of truth into my heart and reveal to me that I am not worthless, I am not deserving of death, and that I am not a nobody. But instead, I’m His child. And I am still loved by Him.
An unimaginable amount of grace has been shown throughout my life, and I will never understand why He continues to show grace in spite of my failures. But sometimes, it’s not to question, but to trust.. Sharing about ”Trusting God no matter what happens” during HopeKids service yesterday, it did remind me of really trusting that God has His plan, and it’s only for me to fully trust in Him. For He is sovereign.
“They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”
Jeremiah 17:7-8
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank You so much for how You have been showing Your love to me in my life, and I am grateful for so much that You have provided all this while. Even though there are times I still question my worthiness, may I always remember that I am loved by a great and sovereign God. As Christ has led me in confidence towards You, so too may I live in confidence and trust in Your plan for me no matter what it may be. You have led my life this far, and I trust that You are never done with me yet. There is always more for me to learn and live in this life for Your glory. And as much as I may question my own worth at times, may I remember that I am still loved by You, and to trust in Your sovereignty over my life.
I love You God, always.
Amen.